Location, Location, Location

The idea of going ‘inward’ to find truth, or the concept of an ‘inner’ self or a ‘higher self frustrates me.

I can no more grasp the locus of my  inner self than I can my heart, brain, or lungs. I’m told that  my vital organs are also within me, but I can’ t see or feel them–as long as they’re functioning properly. I see the rise and fall of my chest, but I’m not convinced there are lungs inside of me. I’ve never seen them, but if I were cut open, I can reasonably expect that these organs I’ve heard about would be there–quite pinkly proven.  If I have difficulty imagining my own physicality, then trying to wrap my mind around an intangible part of myself is just impossible.

How high up is my higher self? Step-stool high? Binoculars high? Hubble telescope high?

How do I know I’ve probed far enough toward my inner self? Is it like jabbing a finger inside my ear until I hit a tender spot?

I’m certain that what is meant by ‘higher’ self describes an evolved self rather than a geographically elevated self, but the concept still makes me want to look up. I’m hung up on the actual locus of these ‘selves’ and want so much to find them and integrate them into my experience, but my quest is unresolved and fruitless, and it makes me wonder about ‘where’ any part of my ‘self’ really is.

Maybe there is no locus at all. Maybe, attempting to pinpoint any supposed aspect of myself is like the ocean trying to find the wet spot. There is no inner self or higher self. There is only the self, examined or unexamined, conscious or unconscious.

It’s right here.

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4 Responses to Location, Location, Location

  1. Avenefica says:

    Beautifully contemplative post. Nicely spun, nicely composed. Thanks for repositioning proper perspective.

  2. grizelda3 says:

    Thank you. I appreciate your kind words, and thank you for taking the time to read and comment here at Moving Forward in a Circle.

    -griz

  3. lalber says:

    Hey, you’re back in action! Great post. Have to admit, sometimes you’re too deep for me! 🙂

  4. grizelda3 says:

    Thanks Lis!

    Hmmm, you’ve been pretty contemplative of late yourself, my dear.
    Merry Christmas, by the way!

    -griz

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