T-Zone vs Astringent

April 12, 2014

Determined to scrub the film
from my skin, remove the unclean
stick of it, I impose detergent and might
against this shield that in fact keeps me clean.
Its very nature, viscous and stubborn, presupposes
that I’ll attempt to undo it.
I inhabit a wise design
that in the end always outsmarts me.
Bare-skinned and squeaky clean for
mere moments before the film slides
back over, like a mother’s infinite reach,
though I continually refuse the anointing.


Untitled

April 4, 2014

Vintner, physician of the ferment,
undertaker of the vine, perverts
nature in reviving the grape gone
widdershins of ordinary decay.
A fruit zombie, raised up
from the oaken grave
to toast life.


Forgiving the Bad Poem

February 23, 2014

Writers know the best tool for objective critique of work they are attached to is time. A few weeks, months, sometimes even years have to go by before I can look at a piece and say, “this passage doesn’t work,” so I cut away, and it’s painless.

There are poems I’ve loved and thought would always stand up to that scrutiny, but when finally seen though a matured, seasoned eye, make me cringe. Some pieces transform easily into well-crafted, sophisticated poems with a little pruning and tweaking.

And others, I just don’t want to touch.

I’m inclined to lump all my older stuff together as “bad, immature, pretentious,” but I come across poems I feel are strong, for the time in which they were written. I may be encountering works I’m not able to improve simply because I’m just not that skilled a poet. A writer with a keener eye may see where to delete a redundant word or improve a clunky phrase, and may deftly execute those revisions. I’m just not there.

I wonder though, if it is the destiny of some poems, or certain artistic creations of any medium, to remain forever imperfect, and not just slightly off the mark, but really outright bad. I wonder now if I just have to let a bad poem be a bad poem, because that is its purpose.

I, in fact am the personification, the human embodiment of this idea.

Try as I might, and I do make meager attempts at perfection and excellence, I’m thwarted in these endeavors repeatedly. Some people shine, excel, triumph. I’m just happy if I don’t tip over.

I’m flawed, imperfect, a practiced underachiever. But there is some relief in accepting this. I feel peace in surrendering to this very low bar.

So when I come across a poem that doesn’t measure up, but I have no idea how to fix it, I bless the work with the understanding that it’s fulfilled its mission as bad poem, making a mental note to put it in the burn pile before I die.

And sometimes, all I have to do is change the title.


May Is Still 6 Months Away

December 1, 2013

Thank you to Rob and Michelle at The Poet’s Billow for the good news. Now I’m on to the next goal!

PUSHCART PRIZE

Mom and Dad preserved the writings in an envelope, the paper now softened

nearly to cloth over some 40 years: my first poems. I touched them, admired the early

attention to penmanship, embellished with childish drawings at the bottom.

I pressed them close to my face, smelled my home and that year of being eight and nine.

I resurrected my parents’ pride and held the paper close to my face whispering into its fibers,

“I’ve been nominated.”


Messin’ Around

September 28, 2013

Thanks to Cubby,  I’ve been inspired to try new things with poetry. Well, not exactly new things, but I’m moved to
revisit the metered poem, and to try structured pieces, like villanelles, sestinas and their friends.

I’m not a big fan of form (as it relates to poetry), but I respect the creativity and care required to execute a well-written piece that regards form. You probably won’t see any pantoums or sonnets here anytime soon, but I’m enjoying working with blank verse again (metered & unrhymed).

The specimen below is something between an exercise and a real poem. Sometimes posting these things here lights a fire under my ass and my editing eye sharpens drastically. It might improve, or it may never change. But even as it is, you could almost dance to it.

Whole Notes

A poem is a spell, sorcery

a musical incantation,

trills and grace notes and metaphors

a conjuring of the god songs.

 

A selfish thing and a giving thing

depending on the receiver,

a common rhyme or arcanum

for the open mind to savor.

 

Octaves, tercets, and algebra,

the heart it drums in eights and fours,

waltzing words and arias soaring,

diving signs and wonders.


Petition At Gethsemane

March 30, 2013

Forgive me, Father, I’m afraid.

These people need compassion; How

does my death love them?

When the crows pluck out my eyes

who will see your Children’s light?

The moldering Christ cannot

lay hands upon them, cannot awaken them,

comfort or protect them.

 

Take this cup, Abba,

give it to the zealots.

Milk-laden sheep of Israel ache,

bleating for the return of

their butchered lambs.

If Barabbas or Judas or Peter

won’t fulfill your prophecy,

then please, God, just this

once, couldn’t you drink

the bitter wine yourself?Image_


Purpose Decoded

January 5, 2013

Discipline isn’t a virtue. It’s a neurosis.

It’s a way to exist peaceably in fear.It’s superstition rationalized, normalized, sanctioned.

We miss things, details, miracles, being hypnotized by routine. We’re blind to magic, we discard the moment and embrace our lists and ladders. We’re convinced that we don’t know ourselves, like there is something to know. We’re certain that we are sabotaging our lives when there is only the story of sabotage that we observe.

We struggle with our perceived failure to have accepted ourselves, our alleged incapacity for loving ourselves. But the self that we would love is a hologram, an illusion and its purpose is to amuse. It was not meant to last. It was not meant to be known or understood.

When we abide in wonder, we are witness to the whole point of this. When we can laugh at the ridiculousness of it all, we are actualized.